Anonymous asked: why don't you use nicotin gum. It helped me to quit. everyday passes you become stronger when you look at what you have achieved.Zesht
Haha who dis! That “zesht” triggered a familiarity to me. And to answer, I kind of think they’d taste horrific! But maybe. I really need to stop. The thing is I don’t think I have the super willpower someone needs to really want to quit for good…
I feel as though I am usually living in a void - observing and existing here, waiting for something to happen. Or maybe waiting to meet someone who completes me. That happened once, but then when my once-in-a-lifetime connection leaves, I almost wish I had never had it in the first place. At least before, I didn’t know what it felt like to be genuinely content - even for a brief moment in time.
Now left angry and resentful. And lacking conclusion.
"Mutable water and cardinal fire both bless and curse this blend with the need to act on imagination as they touch a fleeting instant of eternity. Yearning for the impossible can lead you to visionary heights or into a mental institution.
What you can’t see, hear, feel or touch but know is there can be maddening, especially in a society which worships the tangible and denigrates imagination.
Until you can prove what you imagine is true, you are a dreamer. Then you are a visionary. Some of what you can imagine drives you to act without waiting for proof. You live with distraction & sweet desire in the midst of a blasé humanity where the omnipotent can disappoint you as well.
An active challenge to the unknown can produce some of the most profound results as well as come crazy undeveloped hints of what could be. In order to bridge these conflicting energies, you must calm your impulse to action. “Let’s get this show on the road, whether it is ready or not.” You must take time, without apology to yourself or others, to calm your impulse and live with excitement without “jumping the gun” from restlessness to be where you can’t quite see clearly yet.
If anyone ever needed to learn patience it is this combination of pressures. You also have the ability to perform miracles once you have learned to operate these two contrary energies in a way that they work together under your conscious control.”
Day 2 completed of operation quit smoking. I never realized how fucking lame nicotine withdrawal is. I’ve been having the most intense, weird, vivid nightmares (and not taking any nicotine patches or anything, just quit cold turkey). No energy. Oh, and the most horrific headache I have ever had. Ever. Like, the type of headache where if you move your head too fast it feels 50x worse than the worst headache ever. And it never goes away. It’s just a continuous barrage of fail throughout the day.
Let me just add some more details to these series of unfortunate events: I’m also on a 12 day herbal detox. Started same day as my no smoking decision. Because it seems stupid to smoke while I’m doing a full body detox. So I’m also on this super strict eating regimen that means I have to eat like a squirrel. And also take these disgusting tasting vitamins and drink things that taste like what I imagine satan’s piss would taste like. And I’m a grumpy Iranian because of all this. It’s only day two. Let’s hope this crap gets better. I mean, I know it’s for the better. Once my body gets used to being a squirrel it’ll get easier. I just hate it now. And man, I want a smoke.
P.S: On my first day quitting smoking, I came home and randomly found this tiny broken cigarette in my room. And I desperately smoked the one puff it had like a homeless crack addict. I kind of loled at my pathetic life after.
Anonymous asked: What advice would you give to someone who wants to enhance their spirituality? Pretty serious questions since I've been stuck on how to do this for the past 2 years :(
Hmmm, that’s a difficult question to really answer, but I would say listen to yourself. Whatever desire you might hold deep in your soul, or have a curiosity/leaning towards a point of view is something that is for you to explore. For me, I used my curiosity and immersed myself in learning about spirituality and religion (many different forms) and got a lot of new knowledge (this may be specific to me though, because when I was growing up, my family never discussed anything to do with spirituality. I grew up pretty much as an atheist, so again, I had to teach myself a lot of basic things a lot of people probably just few up with. But to sum it up, listen to your calling. Focus on gaining knowledge. The rest will come after these steps.
Anonymous asked: Heyo! Read your take on Buddhism... but I noticed that a lot of your posts were kinda centered around other sources and areas of spirituality (idk, ex. the zodiac) .. so what exactly do you study? What sources of spirituality interests you the most? Vague question.. I know lol
Hey! To be honest I don’t really remember ever saying I was a 100% Buddhist, but a lot of my followers think I am (of course I meditate a lot and I share a lot of the same views in life, but the belief system I had was kind of in place long before I actually started learning more about Buddhism). I just see myself as holding no previous bias or judgement in my views of the world and love to just take it all in and learn from them all. In the end, no matter what you believe, we’re all just parts of a whole.
enso-motion-deactivated20120722 asked: Alright, I know this question is kinda... well, "out of nowhere"... but I was wondering if you could tell me what signs of "spiritual awakening" are to you. Random, I know, but I'm kinda curious since I noticed that I've been getting a lot of varied responses to that question from some really spiritual people I know of.
Interesting question. I don’t think there is a specific list as we all have different circumstances that change in our lives. For me I honestly can’t even point to a specific event that made me want to learn more and eventually have some weird experiences. I think maybe in because I was high a lot, and I kind of noticed the change in my surroundings/saw life in a different way, and it made me curious to change my views, explore and learn more about spirituality and consciousness
Anonymous asked: 20 words to describe yourself! Go! :)
What a fun question! I’m going to do 20 short explanations because I can’t limit to 20 words, hahaha. Okay, here I go:
1. Independent (I love just doing things alone. I think it’s because I was an only child and was always raised in that way)
2. Curious about life (why I’m here, the beginning, etc)
4. I joke around a lot, I think I have a pretty good sense of humor with my friends (that sounds douche-y to say but whatevz*~)
8. Artistic, painting, drawing, etc. Love exploring artists and aesthetics that are original/interesting to me. My mother’s side of family (and her included) all had a big involvement with art and I grew up around it.
9. Love of philosophy, spirituality, religion. Love learning about it all. Not really making a judgement on each but observing each and admiring good things about each.
10. I kind of have a big mouth. I can’t stop myself from being one of those annoying people who need to join in on a debate in class. I can’t keep my opinions to myself once someone says something ignorant or judgmental.
11. It takes a lot for me to call someone a close friend. I don’t like being in a huge crowd of people and going out. I feel uncomfortable and it all feels superficial to me. It’s something I can resent about myself sometimes, but it’s just who I am.
12. Going off the previous, I’m just someone who needs to always dig deeper into everything. In relationships, I want to feel a connection with a person in their soul. I can’t stand talking about nothing and small talk. I just need something deeper. It can frustrate me. Same with my interest in spirituality.
13. Think it’s cause I’m an Aries, but I can have a pretty short temper with people, but only if I’ve been pushed too many times.
14. If I like someone, I will just tell them. I have no game whatsoever
15. I hate conflict
16. I’m an idealist to the core. Kind of annoyed at myself over it sometimes
17. I’m outgoing and confident when I’m not alone. Usually when I’m alone I just keep to myself and observe
18. I find that I put a lot more into my friendships and relationships than they do back, and when I finally realize it I feel kind of betrayed and feel like I never knew them to begin with.
19. (kind of going on about the previous, but) I always think the best of everyone. Which has kind of hurt me. I don’t know why but I have no walls up whatsoever, and I just kind of think that if I wouldn’t do something, then no one else would either. So I always find myself surprised and hurt by people.
20. Cynical about love, lovey dovey movies, mushy stuff. Kind of hard to not roll my eyes over it. Probably because I’m subconsciously bitter about my lack of romantic partners
Anonymous asked: If you had to go on a random spiritual journey to wherever you wanted, what places would you go to?
Good question! I would definitely want to go to Egypt and spend a lot of time exploring the all the history and visiting the pyramids, etc. That’s like my idea of heaven!
I never really thought of other places to visit. but visiting Tibet would be absolutely amazing as well. So much history and spirituality to explore…
Lastly, I want to go and spend like three weeks going and seeing everything in the Louvre museum. They have incredible artifacts and art I’d drool over.
ifoundanewurl asked: what do you want to be when you are older or try to accomplish within the next few years?
I’m currently studying to work in the marketing/business field (learning about newer forms of media right now). When you’re in a mass media class you realize how fucked up we are, hahaha
I am the textbook idealist.
Anonymous asked: So how do you feel meditation has helped you? I know enlightenment is a big thing, but I noticed that meditation tends to have an influence over people that varies from person to person. How do you feel it's changed/helped/influenced you?
Honestly, it has helped me in so many different ways. Just on a physical aspect, I have so much more energy, and just wake up automatically after as little as 6 hours of sleep. I used to have trouble waking up and could sleep over 12 hours easily if someone didnt force me out of bed. I had general fatigue issues (always felt tired).
Emotionally, I was in a bad state before and had a lot of resentment towards someone, and it really allowed me to have a place to release everything and I moved on from those feelings so easily and unintentionally. I just felt better with everything around me.
I even had my friend tell me without me saying anything that I looked different and “had more light and a glow” and seemed happier, which even surprised me…
Spiritually, it just helps me be more aware of things we don’t see with our eyes but can reach with meditation. Just more understanding and flowing with life…
It’s proven to physically change brain functioning for the better, and its help physically is only the beginning. It’s just an all-round benefit for everyone, even for people who don’t care for spiritual aspects of it.
Anonymous asked: General question time! What are some of your favorite music artists?
Yay! Fun question.
So cliche, but I love so many different genres. Most are not the super cool underground music no one has heard of.
I love older rap mainly, but I have a #1 love for Amy Winehouse. I love Nas, Adele, The Black Keys, Eminem (super old stuff is my favorite), The Smiths, Radiohead, Jack White, Jay-Z, Justice (!), Lana Del Rey, M.I.A., some classical (mainly when I’m drawing or something), Nirvana, Biggy, No Doubt, Skrillex, Tupac, etcetcetc.
I also love old soul/jazz singers like Etta Fitzgerald, Aretha Franklin, Etta James, Frank Sinatra, Sarah Vaughan, etc
steamypersiankebab: Listen, I love you in a very Whitmanesque fashion as well as your blog in a very genuine way…but I call bullshit on your aura seeing. you expect me to believe that you’re some kind of all powerful mystic?
Your comment is funny. I looked at your page a while back and saw you are an atheist, which immediately shows your disregard for anything to do with metaphysical and spiritual beliefs, so I wonder why you even follow or reblog me so much. I’m not surprised you don’t believe in things like this. But I don’t care to try to prove it to you. I don’t have any reason to make something up to anonymous people on the internet who are not even in my daily life. My blog is a complete expression of my truth. I really don’t enjoy starting internet arguments with people, it is a waste of time and energy.
Anonymous asked: You should post pics of your tattoos :) they look pretty cool.
Thanks! I think I have a few pictures of them that I posted a while back, but I’m planning on getting a new one very soon and will def post better pictures. xoxo